MwithCrazyBirds

5 o’ clock and a fire escape symphony,
Spilling out across the road and the square,
And the sky’s the same as your own, do you think of me?
Do the parks, and trees, and the leaves, reach you, there?
After the rain, in the lonely hours he haunts me, calling out,
Again and again.

Sophia, Sophia, I’m burning, I’m burning.
It’s a fire, it’s a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I’m learning that some things,
I can’t go without and one of those is him.

And now I walk these streets like a stranger in my home town,
Learn the language, form the words when I speak,
But he changed me, I’m his ghost since he came around,
And now I count the hours and the days in the weeks.

Passion and silence,
Every word, every time, a measure,
It’s the science of the soul,
And his books, they breathe a reason and now I want to know…

Sophia, Sophia, I’m burning, I’m burning,
It’s a fire, it’s a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I’m learning that some things,
I can’t go without and one of those is him.

You, with your new born eyes,
Have you ever loved a man like I love him?
Do you hurt but still feel alive, like never before?
Oh, Sophia, Sophia.

Sophia, Sophia, I’m burning, I’m burning,
It’s a fire, it’s a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I’m learning that some things,
I can’t go without and one of those is him.

I start to have some crush on you,
Put out the fire before it’s too late.

Pressures! It really is hard to describe how heavy the pressures are on my shoulders, assignments, cases, career fairs, job searches, loads. Workload is truly intense but I can stand it, I did have expected this before I came, it was me who made the dicision to come and take all these challenges, they are very tough but I enjoy them.

Pressures! This comes from another part of our life, or it might be better to call it irritating. My life is brilliant, my love is pure, I met a geek of that I’m sure… Yep everything is so fine except for that one little spot, and it really ruined my sunny bright mood! Really want to release a bit over here but find it not so appropriate, so I’d better keep it to myself really. Though let me scream a little bit, WHAT THE HELL!!!

We went to the CSSA mid autumn party tonight and frankly it was not very impressive. Foods are well prepared and performances are fully rehearsed, but there was no highlights. Our Forsyth buddy Xiaoyu sang beautifully but the microphone was awful, the talk show was great but the performer forgot his scripts for a while. Anyway we had a good time tonight if not being so picky. And next time we could possibly think of a few shows by the members in our big house, cos everyone is talented, really.

Still left with 4 assignments for next week, and loads to read, hopefully I can finish as much as possible by tomorrow evening so that I can get a fresh start on Monday. The vice president debate is soon going to be held on Wash U campus, not really into politics but it certainly will be some uncommon experience to witness such a big event. Peace.

Unfortunately things didn’t work out so great with me for the recent couple of weeks, schedules are severely interrupted, and I was so frustrated with all those unexpected failures. I guess it’s all because I didn’t push myself hard enough and instead have been idling, plus a bit of bad luck. Sometimes I really do believe in luck, although it’s not an absolute determinant of anything happened, but it does have an impact. I had a fortune cookie a few days ago and it told me that some cheerful message was on the way, seriously I hope there is.

It is mid autumn festival today, it doesn’t mean too much for me to be honest. Gathering with family on the day is just not my family tradition. Parents are on holiday, probably in Qinghai at this moment, and I’m thousands of miles away from them. Never mind, I’m pretty used to it. And luckily I’ve got a bunch of very nice housemates and they really drives away my loneliness, if there’s any. It’s just so great to have them.

Our job hunting process has already begun, several career fairs were hold on campus, some with regular titles and some with fancy names but in essence they are the same thing. Pressures from the recession can be easily detected, firms hire much less people, they don’t provide much offer to international students, which is a very serious issue for me. I want to stay and have my own career, within nobody’s but my control. I guess these on campus recruiments can only give some very general guidance and I really need to count on myself to get myself a job.

I still need to work on my driver’s license and hopefully I’ll get it done by the end of the month. There’re loads of stuff I need to deal with, probably will not update my blog as frequent as I had wished, but I’ll try to post an entry if there’s anything I want to share.